Is God in this story?
Last night in the dark, my 13-year-old daughter came in my bed crying. She plopped down like a deflated ball with big tears rolling down her cheeks.
“Mom…I’m not going to get to perform my play next week. I’ve been working for months on this and you don’t even seem to care.”
I stopped my gut reaction which was filled with defensiveness and disappointment. I silently ( thank goodness) thought to myself, “Really? I’ve only been stockpiling supplies for our family in the middle of a world crisis as our lives spiral out of control but sorry I haven’t cried over your play!”
In that moment of brushing her hair away from her tear-stained face, I felt the weight of genuine hurt and childlike disappointment. Quickly, I remembered that so many kids are experiencing their first wave of feeling completely out of control in the plan for their life. As much as I would like to act like I’m more mature and focused than a jr high kid, I have to admit as God’s child, I feel much the same way.
There are so many plans that are falling apart and so many moments that seem lost in this moment for so many people. Not just the school play but the graduations, weddings, funerals, family trips, gatherings, events and church services that mean so much.
The current situation of COVID19 has radically changed the story of our lives but God is still in this story.
We can rest in His care over the big and little stories of life!
If I am just a mom and I feel the compassion to hold my jr high daughter as she cries over personal disappointment, can you imagine how much more our heavenly Father God wants to show us compassion in the moments that hurt us?
Why? Because the pain is real for every hurting heart. Yes, there are major trying times, lives that can be lost and huge issues that must be faced. But today, I just wanted you to know that God gets those little disappointments of our heart along the way.
I pray the words of Psalm 91 will be a comfort to you today and at night when the troubles of the world seem to cause the tears.
I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” 3 Surely he will save you from the fowler’s snare and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, 6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. 8 You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The LORD is my refuge,” and you make the Most High your dwelling, 10 no harm will overtake you, no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; 12 they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. 13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he loves me,” says the LORD, “I will rescue him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
With the confidence of this scripture, hopefully we can give our hurt to God and go to sleep!
Blessings to each of you during this difficult time. If you have any special requests, please feel free to contact me for prayer. – Tracey